Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in lizjiz26's LiveJournal:

Friday, August 25th, 2006
3:08 pm	Hookin Up & Hangin Out Well I guess since my night was so great, I should write about it. Yesterday was packed with a lot of shit. My sister came in from AZ and we went out to eat with my dad and brother and his family. Well that was awkward, to say the least. Of course smart comments were made from everyone, but I played with the baby so I was keeping myself away from the drama. So from there...I came home and got ready for the Toby Keith concert. We got there and honestly, I was drunk within the first hour. I saw people from Rider and just had a ball. Saw Rob..and got in trouble for having a cigarette, but what else is new. Anyway, the music was fucking awesome. Called Bill and let me just tell you, I couldn't tell ya what I said. Went to the bar, but could barely stay awake so I came home and crashed. At least I'm feelin good today. I must say, it was the best concert this summer since last one was the worst. Anyway...I had fun. That's basically it. Current Mood: drained Current Music: Get Drunk & Be Somebody (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 20th, 2006
9:29 pm	yeaaAAA so yea..I am kinda bored so I figured I would take some time and write in this shittin thing. So yesterday Mommy took me to the Franklin Mills mall because she loves me and bought me a lot of clothes. So now I have clothes for school since I gave a lot of my clothes to Jen. Anyways... I have to go get my eyes examined tomorrow to see if I need glasses. I probably do since I can't see 10 ft in front of me when I am driving. (Maybe that is why I break so close to the cars) Tuesday I have fuckin jury duty in Camden. How fun is that going to be at 8:15 in the morning. It is going to be all day and I am probably not even going to get called or anything and if I do, it will be pointless because Rider starts in a week. The best of this week is going to be on Thursday. It's Aurelia's first birthday and the TOBY KEITH concert. Hookin up and Hangin Out Tour ;) Can't wait. Going with my cousin and tailgating for a loooong time then havin a blast inside. This concert will hopefully be better than the last but I'm sure not as good as the XTU. Only a few of you know what I'm talking about and I would just rather keep it that way. One step at a time. That's all I keep tellin myself. <3 Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Brad Paisley - The World (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 12th, 2006
12:38 am	this is me. okay, so let's get into all this fucking shit. about a week and a half ago i fucked up real bad with life, i got real upset and so did everyone else because i brought them down with me. i am sorry for everyone who suffered with me but thank you for bringing me back to reality. you will get hurt and you will hurt people. people are going to hate you for things you did and if they care enough about you, they will find it in their hearts to forgive you. you learn what you want especially after you lose that thing/person for a period of time. you learn you can't go thru a day without that person. many people leave your life but a few will fight thru the hard times with you until you get back to where you want to be. you also learn that things may not go right back to normal. it is very very VERY hard when it isn't the same right away, but all you can do is hope the person/people forgive you enough to start trusting you again and share the same feelings before the shit happened. --the feelings never left on my part, and from this point of view, they aren't leaving anytime soon. life throws curves to ya, but you need to follow them and they will lead you to somewhere you want to be. i promise. i never meant to fuck up, believe it or not, but i would never do it in any right state of mind. i wish you could go back to the way you were, and not be so harsh on me, i never intentionally hurt you. but if that's how we are going to play the game, i can't sit around and wait for you while you are having fun and i'm waiting for your phone call every night. i would give you the world if i could, but i can't. i can only give you me. i care too much to hurt you. but i guess that feeling isn't recipricated. i don't know what else to say. --i don't understand why every guy minus one will give me the time of day and i just don't want anything to do with them. i try and get it through their heads i am not the same girl i was a year ago, but no one seems to understand that. i don't want to be a ONS anymore. I don't want people to think if a guy comes up and talks to me, he is going to be friends with my bed for the night. I am not like that. I don't want to be thought of like that anymore and honestly, I don't even want sex right now. Things need to get back to normal before I start going and thinking about that shit. I need my life back to where it was a month ago. Life was grand, now it's shit. I play hard to get because I am hard to get. If I don't sit on your lap every second of the day I am with you, get the hint, I don't want anything. Move onto someone else. (it doesn't seem that hard for many of you) If I am not kissing you every three seconds, get the hint, I don't want to kiss you. I only need to kiss one guy in my life, and that's how it is going to be. Even at school. I am not going to be my little frat girl self and go out every night and get with guys at the frats and parties. Granted, I will go out, but I can be good when I need to be. Even if no one else trusts in me or believes me, I do in myself. That will get me places hopefully. I don't know what else to say about this but I just am not the same girl as I was a year ago and I hope people realize that sooner than later. --It would be easier if everyone could just go into my head and think what I think, but they can't. I can't verbally express myself ever, so I wrote this out for everyone to understand a little bit of what is running through my mind. I only really need one person to understand, but we'll see about that one. I think I am the one that is in over my head. Current Mood: drained Current Music: just another day in paradise (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 11th, 2006
8:03 pm	WXTU So yet another fun country concert with my stalker. We met many people, and I actually remember all their names this time, and it all started out because we wanted to sit on a tailgate. We met three people, who live in Twp., but they are definitely not the preps the rest of them are, definitely hickville USA. We traveled to the porta potty and then met peeing guy. Well that was fun, my neck is grateful for meeting him. Note to self: invest in cover up if you are going to let random people give you six hickeys. Then the porta pottys got locked up, so we had to be straight hick and use a blanket and pee at the truck. fun times. minus the stage fright. Well I saw Stacey Webb, and she gave me her guitar glass, woOo. And I saw Gus, and well, that is always fun too :)~ Lyc threw up, so we covered it with a box. Rob kissed loud, so they all made fun of him. Lisa got extremely burnt so she took off both her tops and just hung loose in a tshirt. We just had a blast all in all. My face is red and my neck has purple marks and my legs have many bruises from who knows what. Well I guess that's how a country concert goes. We didn't run into Eric, which was upsetting, but maybe at Toby :) Good times <3 Current Mood: chipper Current Music: phil vassar (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 11th, 2006
1:44 pm	Redneck Revolution So The Redneck Revolution Tour was amazing. Blaine Larsen isn't old enough to drink, yet he cheered everyone anyway. Trace Adkins, well he is Lyc's heart and soul, and just wonderful. Gretchen Wilson is awesome, just because she sung Homewrecker, and well, that describes both Lyc and I, especially last night. So there was this couple, Eric and Kelly, and Eric was pretty cute, not gonna lie. Well they were both drunk and Eric started dancing with Lyc and I. Well lets just say, his girl got mad because he was paying more attention to us than her. Oh well. Gretchen sang "She ain't woman enough to take my man" and it was great, because that was right after he got in trouble. I whispered in Eric's ear, "is this what your girl is saying to us (Lyc and I)?" and He just looked at me and was like "She would be wrong". Soo..Ms. Kelly, you ain't the only woman he was talkin to last night. Sorry. You have him for another month til we find you in a month minus one day for the WXTU Concert. It is going to be insane. Well "it is what it is". And I love how he had to give us kisses in front of you as well as grindin up on me and grabbin my ass. Good job, you found a keeper. We know where Maple Shade is and we will find him if we need him. He also kept saying you two were "on and off" that means you aren't a keeper, you just give it to him. PS. we aren't called sluts for nothing. haah. Well that was our night last night. The end <3 Current Mood: giddy Current Music: redneck music (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 4th, 2006
2:23 am	last day with my favorite Moose. So basically the year is comin to an end in less than a week, and this is the last night Moose is going to stay here. Very upsetting on many levels. She is one of the best, Australia better watch out. They don't know what they are in for. I'm losin another one to Australia too, but I guess that is needed. Everything will fade and maybe I won't feel the same about him anymore, but I guess after like 12 years, it would have by now. Nope..oh well. Things are actually going pretty good other than people leaving the US. Well, and the ex hating me basically, but that's for a whole other venting entry that is just my fault, so I shouldn't even bother. At least the Phillies won today..four in a row. That's something. So in 6 days I'll be in South Jersey again. Where there is nothing to do and no one to see. Working will be fun, from 6:30am to 10pm almost every night. Going back to the Drama-mart, aka K-mart and driving for a lab company. This is going to be interesting. At least I'll have money for later in life, hopefully, since no one will take it to help themselves. When I try to be nice, I just get turned down. Makes no sense. Brother Inish was today. I'm so proud of the Gamma Delta's. They are a good addition to the APO family. We needed some involved people. Got 6 great girls, couldn't ask for better. And I love Nicole in her skit, making fun of me. Shit, if people ate the candy, I'd be happy, but they don't. And of course, I loved being raised Catholic, now sex will always be a little bit dirty. haha. I guess it's time for bed, since Moose is already passed out and I'm sure she would like to sleep in the dark. Sweet dreams all. Current Mood: confused Current Music: Nelly (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 23rd, 2006
2:20 am	Long day, great night <3 So it was a long day with Pi Rho Sectionals and it was a boring evening, but at night, oh at night, it gets crazy. Kelly and I decided to chill and drink, cuz well, that's what we do. And we played Memory, yes, that is the game for ages 3+. I rocked it hardcore. I won 21-15, and she only got a few of the matches because I told her where they were at. lol. We blew up balloons and put them in some guys bed of his truck and gave most of my floor a balloon on their door. Good times. We walked back to Olson to get chinese food from her fridge then we ate a lot of it. We sat and had some good conversations, which is rare but we had fun. Now of course, we are rockin out to Shania Twain, cuz we are odd like that. But dont get me wrong, we definitely rocked out to NKOTB (New Kids on the Block for all you slow folks) first. This is how we roll. We are awesome, don't ever think twice. hehe. Too bad we haven't chilled that much this year, and just started recently. But there is no time like the present. Love this girl. Time for more talking and whatnot. Great night <3 Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: SHANIA TWAIN <3 (Comment on this)
Friday, April 21st, 2006
9:50 pm	So as this year is basically coming to an end, with one week of classes and a week of finals, I am ready to waste away with all the alcohol presented to me. *This shot/beer is for: Twinnie- making this year livable, and fucking hilarious. Moose & Juice- letting me sleep on their floor and eat their food in times of need *I'll miss you Moose <3333333 Manda- for talking some sense into me when I had none, and of course driving 6 hrs N for rascal fucking flatts. Lyc- everything this semester, making lives miserable with me, and bein the best stalker. ha. Meredith- for making random visits while I was sleeping and needed to wake me up just to say hi Liz- for being the majority with me and runnin this hall. Can't forget about us. Jennie- being my mattress whore and "friend" Alice- getting me back into tennis and going crazy just to get white pants (that ended up with jungle juice) *I'll miss you Alice <33 Erin- just for being a smiling face when the rest of us were upset. Kelly- for being my lover (haha) and making our few encounters great..and leaving me to do some unmentionables Katie- for falling off your chair during power hour. That will never be forgotten n you'll never live it down. Amanda- for making me chill with you that night, leading me to have a little too much fun. haha. Beth- for being 'beautiful' and coming in my room and being so sarcastic, i couldn't help but laugh. Linds & Jo- for bringing South Jersey to Rider. hehe. I'm not an angel anymore! Stacey- making APO a little easier this semester, with all the drama and shit. Sharon- being there with a hug and a kiss every meeting. Deb- for bringing back the old times and doing a paper at night with me before it was due the next day. Monica- for working things out..everything works out in the end. Leah- being my shining face when I walk in and out of the building everyday. I know I missed girls here & there, but my love is to you anyway. Rider would not be the same without you girls. This summer is going to be very empty, but there is no forgetting the fun times the drama filled times and the sad times. I love you all. My girls, My life, My everything. <3 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 20th, 2006
1:54 pm	So..I am getting sucked in to yet another website that will help me procrastinate from the tasks at hand; thanks Lyc! There are two weeks left of school, and drama is coming from every direction, and I love it. I love when people talk shit and expect me not to find out. I hate to break it to everyone, but I am smart. I know things, a lot of things. Don't play dumb or cute with me, because you are dumber than you look and cute, well haha..not even close. You want attention more than anyone I know, so you have to make things about you. Tell me my life is high school drama? Bitch, live a day in my life..you will be crying in a heart beat. I don't need you, I never needed you. Remember, you always came to ME, not vise versa. I love how you think you have all these friends in the dorms, yet the first thing you say to them about me, I hear within the next couple of hours. C'mon. At least tell that man you so love or that girl that can't ever keep her facts straight. Last time I checked, dear, you couldn't get 3 people from 1 person. You are just a bad liar, and will always get caught. This is me ranting and raving because I am finally letting the truth out. I don't hate you, I NEVER hated you, shiiitt...I just did things to see how far I could go, and you STILL don't even know half of it. And please, don't act tough. You have nothing on me. I roll with a bigger crowd than you ever will, not that I need them to beat your ass. kthanks. On a happier note... Summer is almost here and all I want to do is watch the Phillies and go to the beach. The best summer is yet to come, especially with two country concerts coming up. Gretchen Wilson and WXTU concert..shit is going to be crazy. I need it now, but I can't leave just yet because I still need to see hot boy that stares at least one more time and power hour needs to be played a few more times before I can leave this campus. OH YEA, and a few more boys need to be kissed by me. hehe. I'm a slut, I'm proud. Get over it. Lastly..I don't know if you will even read this or if I am even on your buddy list anymore, but I am letting it out anyway. I would never betray you or mean any drunk word I said. I don't even remember saying that in all honesty. I have never left your side through all the shit. Granted, our fights have been over retarded things, and I was always the one to come back, but I am not doing that now. You taught me a lot about myself and I will always be grateful. You made me happy when I couldn't think of even crackin a smile. You made me realize there is a big world out there, and the stupid drama that happens here is just stupid drama. I wish I never said some things I did, and maybe I will never forgive myself for it, but I needed you to know I will always care and never do a thing intentionally to go against you. Believe me or not, but the truth is right in front of your eyes. I miss you, but this was your choice, and I will live with it. Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)